Monthly Archives: February 2010

4 1/2 Months Old….

G is so beautiful. I have never loved someone like I love him. He poops on my hand, I shower him with kisses. He pees on the wall, I tell him how amazing he is. He pukes into my cleavage and I snuggle him close. I never thought I would get HERE.

Here as in: I’m confident in my abilities as a Mommy. I know I try my hardest to be a great Mommy to Gavin. Forget drinking and going out to bars, nothing sounds better to me than a cuddly baby and a great movie. Life has taken quite the unexpected turn, and I couldn’t be happier with my little man.

– Gavin has been rolling over (back to stomach) for a few weeks now. I am so proud, because I kinda sorta neglected tummy time. He hated it. I hated it. Lots of crying. No fun. I would probably do 10 minutes of tummy time every other day in the beginning . (Bad Mommy award goes to me!) But, he figured it out.

– He’s starting to say consonants like “bbbb” and “mmmm”. I’m hoping Mama comes soon. No “ddd”s yet. (HAHA, I WIN!- He gets to be home with him all day, I should at least get SOMETHING!)

– Breastfeeding is going GREAT. *knock on wood*. Pumping at work is a pain. Actually hauling my pump around is more of a pain than the ACTUAL pumping. Hopefully Mike gets a job soon and I can be done with the PUMP!

– He is doing great at sitting up. He uses his mini-abs to pull himself up into a sitting position now. He will fall forward, but I am so proud that he can actually sit up.

– Gavin + Jumparoo = BFF. He loves to bounce. When I hold him up in a standing position he just bounces, bounces and bounces some more. Oh, the energy he uses. But he is tireless.

– Naps. He still only naps for a max of 45 minutes. I am hating on the Mama’s whose babies nap for 3 hours ! You must be able to get SO MUCH DONE!

– We are co-sleeping still. Having him in bed with me just feels RIGHT. Putting him in the PnP next to me makes me feel disconnected and nervous. Knowing we get that big chunk of time every night to be together is something I look forward to every day.

Gavin, You’re amazing. My heart is exploding from all the love and pride I have for you.


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Not so Wordless Wednesday….

I needed to think of SOME use for the crib. Since we co-sleep it has been long forgotten. New Use: Babysitter for when I am cleaning Gavin's room. Plus, he loves the ADORABLE Classic Pooh Mobile! Pshhh...Who wouldn't?!

Gavin napping during the Super Bowl. Maybe he'll take after his father and hate football. A girl can dream.

I realize I have negated the whole concept of “wordless wednesday”. I think it’s more like “Lazy picture day with lame caption”….

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1.  Blog Giveaways: I finally won something. You may remember me complaining about my non-sexy WHITE bra. Well the heavens have heard my prayers (…err read my blog post?). I won a new Lamaze Nursing Bra from Woman, Uncensored ! Hurray! I chose a BLACK lacy nursing bra! HOT – well as hot as a nursing bra can be! I enter alot of blog giveaway contests and I’ve only won one other thing. A water toy/game thing which Gavin won’t use for another three years. I won that from Chicago Parent Magazine, but that was a year ago…so hurray! Yay for me!

2. Borders $1 Clearance:  zomg. best. sale. ever. I made three trips to Borders over the past week and a half. Honestly one of the best book sales I’ve ever come across.  I think I purchased 38 books. Oops…Well at least it was only $38…and they are all books I actually want to read. Plus, I can trade them all on my new fave site- SWAPTREE!!!!!!! (I’m in love!!!! I can’t say enough good things about this site!)

Apparently nobody in my community reads, because I honestly think I was THE ONLY person that bought books from those shelves.  Every other Borders I went to their $1 shelves were completely picked over. They also had a $1 clearance on toys that was not really publicized. None of it was marked.  You had to search & scan for everything. Sadly, my store only had a few of the toys that were marked down to a dollar. Plus, most of the toys were for older kids and….I have enough crap in my house without storing more toys that G won’t use for another 5 years!!!!

3. Free crap from CVS:

CVS/ Walgreens - Week 1 - I spent .84 cents ...This would easily cost $40 full price.

CVS - WEEK 2 - I spent $9. Full price about $48

Well almost free. I just started using their CVS’s  Extra-Care Bucks, Walgreens Register Reward & coupon-ing HARDCORE. I’ve always been a coupon dabbler…But,  I like free stuff and at work I don’t do a whole lot lately…so that equals lots of time to coupon.  I don’t know why I haven’t been doing these drugstore deals my whole life. If you get the Sunday paper it is NOT HARD. There are tons and tons of blogs that list the free things you can get each week. I seriously never believed these coupon bloggers til I actually did it! My little purchases here are small compared to some of the others I’ve read about!

4. Guacomole, Tuna & Chips: – Me and my husband went out to Shaw’s Crabhouse for V-Day.  Seared Tuna with avocado is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE thing in the world.  I haven’t had it in a year due to pregnancy, having a new baby and not being able to leave the house for days on end. Yum. Mouth orgasm.

My parents were both in town and were able to watch G for us. We were planning on going out to a bar and meeting up with friends afterwards, but I missed the baby too much and wanted to come home and feed him. I’m lame and I love it.

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Thongs and a Full Face of Makeup

Some women feel like Pregnancy makes them beautiful. I was not one of them. Some women feel like being a mother makes them beautiful.  Psh, not me.

I traded in my G-strings (My oh my that sounds skanky) for boy shorts, because REALLY  who wants to feel a string up your ass when you’re 16 weeks pregnant puking your breakfast/lunch/dinner/snack/sip of water up.

Also makeup for a normal day at work, BYE-BYE. I was too tired to even unscrew the cap of my lip gloss. My hands were good for only two things: Pressing the snooze button and shoveling food in my mouth.

Oh, and my cute 34 C push-up Bras. So Long, Farewell. Hello, ugly 36D nursing bras.  I swore I would never EVER wear a white bra. I loathe them. Still do. Might as well just slap a sign over my boobs that says “NO SEX HERE EVER.” I successfully avoided white bras my entire life. But, selecting from the meager stack of 36D Underwire-less (My boobs were too sore  to even THINK of getting a bra with Underwire) bras was another fun preggo adventure. All I saw was white white white white and oh wait, MORE WHITE. Ew Gross.  Just what I need a white bra to accentuate the lovely pallor of my skin.

Another thing that I dearly miss is TANNING. I know, I know skin cancer…bad bad bad bad. But, really not even a mystic tan?? Nothing?! (I’m still trying to figure out if I can Mystic Tan even while I’m Breastfeeding…I’d cover up my boobs, but who knows exactly WHAT is seeping into me.) So for now I will be Ghostface Tara. Ooo. Sexy.

I thought it would be different after I was done being pregnant. Funny joke.  I thought all those stories about being covered in baby puke, forgetting the last time you showered, not being able to brush your teeth all day- those were all horror stories of girls with poor personal hygiene.  I was NEVER going to be that Mom.





My shower became  a reward at the end of the night. It was like the martini I could not have.  (Nursing a newborn every 90 minutes eliminated any chance of alcohol consumption for me.) I admit, I didn’t shower every day. It hurt my C-section incision and as soon as I would hop in the shower the baby would be screaming for boobs. I couldn’t brush my tangled hair because I was so sore. My Mom or Husband brushed my hair for me. Yes, like I was a 5-year old. ( I secretly enjoyed it).  Unfortunately, the hair-brushing ended. I healed and had to brush my own web-of-destruction hair.  I started being able to shower on a daily basis too, much to the delight of my husband.

I can honestly say I wore nothing but sweatpants or leggings for a good two months after the baby was born. Not because I was fat, (Thank you Lord Jesus,  I lost all my pregnancy weight within 3 weeks of giving birth. This is the ONLY thing you are allowed to hate me for. Yet, ANOTHER benefit of Breastfeeding!) but putting on jeans for a 3-week old baby to puke on is just dumb.  And yes, I joined the pukey nursing tank top club.  “Oh, that was only a little bit….” and “I’ve already gone through 4 shirts today. Oh, well.”

All of these things conspired against me to make me feel like one big steaming pile of poop.  So last week after catching my reflection one too many times and thinking “WHO IS THIS GIRL?!”, I finally FINALLY motivated myself enough to wake up 10 minutes earlier and throw some makeup on and straighten my hair. I also now am back to my panty-line free days of thongs.   You have no idea what a big step this is for me. Seriously. I was beginning to worry. There are still are a few things that I wish I could improve on.  I wish I was skinnier and I wish I was tanner. But one thing at a time, I suppose.

Side Note: My husband now thinks I have a work boyfriend. <Insert  hysterical laughter here>.

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G’s 3 month Checkup

As I mentioned before we went to the doctor 2 weeks ago.  He hadn’t been to the doctor since he was 3 weeks old, so I was a little nervous about this appointment.

I know that we were supposed to bring him in around 2 months.  But due to being out of town for most of December and my indecision regarding the vaccinations, 2 months somehow become 3 months. Mom Fail. Oops.

I was a little concerned about his weight gain.  My little man is a lean little fighting machine.  (Seriously, his kicks HURT! Especially when they’re aimed around my super sexy C-section scar!)  He is not a chubster AT ALL. He looks skinny compared to alot of babies.  I guess he is growing mostly height-wise. My little 3 1/2 month old baby is in NINE MONTH CLOTHES! He blew through his SIX-MONTH sleepers in about a month and a half.  I am boxing up clothes like crazy every weekend. Well, at least it gives me a reason to shop.

Anyways, back to the doctor’s appointment. My doctor is so catering to me. He makes me feel completely non-crazy. I whipped out my PRINTED (again, how did I become THAT Mom?) sheet of questions and started firing away. He answered everything and didn’t act like this was the millionth time he’d answered these questions. (I hate doctors who act like – DUH why don’t you know this?! IF I KNEW WOULD I BE ASKING YOU, ASSHOLE?)

He was so very supportive of me EXCLUSIVELY BREASTFEEDING as long as I want! He also told me that starting with Rice Cereal is CRAP(with basically no nutritional merit) and mostly for formula babies to help them sleep through the night. He said whenever Gavin starts to look interested in food we can give him some. My plan is to EBF til 6 months then do tiny amounts of solids, but Mike is undermining me by letting him taste (not swallow- just lets him lick) tiny pieces of grapes and other soft things. Don’t even get me started.

After all my stress and worries of “Is he getting enough while I’m at work?! Am I pumping enough? Is he feeding enough at night? “, Gavin weighed in at 13 lbs. 13 oz and was a whopping 26 inches long. (That’s the 95th percentile for height! ) The doctor said he was a right on track for weight, which made me feel so good. OH YEAH, GO ME, I DID IT ALL WITH MY OWN BOOBS! THANK YOU, GOD! Knowing that your baby is growing like a weed and it’s all from your own boob milk is fucking awesome.

Finally, the big vaccination conversation rolled around.

“What shots are we going to do today, Mom?”

“Just the DTap”.

“Ok, great! I’ll send the nurse in!”

What! That’s it! But, I’ve practiced reciting “Top 20 reasons not to vaccinate your child”.  No Lecture. No “Well, the AAP says….”.  Just a smile. It was great.

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